On Losing 135lbs: What I Miss Part 1
By: Andie Mitchell
Published: June 15, 2011

I miss some aspects of life when I was big. 135lbs ago.
I miss the reckless abandon.
I miss the volume of food, the horizon of eats that lay before me on a table, knowing full well that the only thing stopping me was my fist-sized stomach. And even then there was always stretch.

I miss the way the fourth slice of pizza tastes. The fifth even more.
I miss bricks of brownie + ice cream + caramel + whipped cream + the crumblies of a Reese’s twosome. For a snack after lunch.
I miss when menus at restaurants were just lists of delicious dinners. And nothing more nutritionally threatening.
I miss not thinking for more than four seconds before deciding that, why yes, I’d absolutely adore donuts for breakfast.

I miss plunging my forearm into a bucket of thrice buttered pop corn at the movie theater. Shoveling mouthfuls of salted and soggy kernels into my gullet. Then Snow Caps. Then Sprite.
I miss brunching with sausage, egg, and cheese on greased and griddled everything bagels in the dining hall at college. With hash browns and a mind on lunch.
I miss all ten inches of that buffalo chicken pizza I called for when the party music stopped playing. And Kelis’ Milkshake.
I miss not caring when or how my next meal came, only that it came. And stayed. And never left.
I miss the way Cap’n Crunch-ed so loudly I couldn’t hear my dad hollering.
I miss that feeling I had when every fiber of my anatomy believed food to be the kindest, most loving spirit a girl could know.

Part 2 to come...

Comments:
Amy Jeanroy
June 15, 2011

So there with you. (((hug)))
I also miss just tasting everything 100 times as I cook, shoveling spoonfuls of gravy and sauce and fried meat-before I add to the sauce, meatballs-since no one will notice, and cleaning up my kid's plates.
BUT I now get hungry. I never was before. I also see the food I put in my mouth, no more mindless eating. I am not the first one done ~every~ time.
I have only lost 26 pounds, but it feels like a ton. Can't wait to see what  you write next!
AJ
Curlysue

I love Andie's site and she's such an inspiration :)
AJ - Just a quick thing though, don't say, "I have only lost 26 pounds," because 26 pounds is a big loss! I once was told a pound is a pound and your loss is important, whether it's a pound, 0.4 or 40+!
Sheri

You are truly a beautiful person. Inside and out. Always. You're such an inspiration and I love you all the more for sharing what has to have been a deep and difficult journey. You're a star!
Barnaby

You go girl! Such an inspiration.
Jennifer

I am so glad that I came across this blog. I have hit a plataeu and reading throught Andie's blog gave me inspiration. I have been trying to get to the 10 lb mark, but just can't seem to get there. Andie you look amazing and have come a long way. Congratulations on your success!
Jameson Fink

Your writing and story is so intensely personal and honest, and I admire your courage and willingness to share it with the world. I am moved.